lazy friday evening

I'm so freakin sleepy...I wanna be in bed and just sleep! Still have 3 hours left...I hope all my remaining students are absent...hehe!

It's gonna be a hectic Saturday for me tomorrow...Sunday would be Youth Sunday so we'll be preparing for it tomorrow. I'm not complaining...hehe...I'm actually looking forward to leading the praise and worship with Gerome (one of my kids in church)...it's gonna be his first time...I'm so excited for him...hehe...he must be dying of fear...haha! Seriously, I would really like to see the day when these kids of mine would have courage enough to stand in front and serve in church...I know God is preparing them for the future...can't wait to see how God would move in their lives:)

I'm in a dazed and confused state. (stood up to borrow a cd to listen to...currently listening to an emo compilation...hehe...very appropriate for my mood...hehe!) How many times should we give people another chance to make up (or even just cleaning up) for the mess they made in our lives? Intense huh? haha! I had a realization the other night...I just gave in again to somebody who has hurt me a great number of times in the past...I'm so freakin stupid! Am I stupid to fall into the same trap again? Well ok...I'm not sure whether this would be another dead end street again 'cause he begged me to believe that things would be different this time...but can't help but think negative. Should I trust this guy again???