valentines, old friends and fruit flies

Can somebody please stop the world from turning...I HAVE TO STOP TIME...MONDAY IS COMING!!! hehe! I was planning on relaxing ang watching a movie this weekend but I didn't get to accomplish it...I ended up stressing out for the Valentine's concert that we're organizing. I'm not complaining...I'm actually excited about it...well excited and REALLY NERVOUS about it..hehe! I single handedly made the patron tickets...I'm quite proud of my job 'cause they looked really classy...I only spent 63 bucks to make them. All the participants are so excited about singing in the concert...as of this afternoon we had 22 songs lined up which is crazy 'cause we can't figure out how we can fit them all in an hour and a half program...hehe. I can't wait to see what'll happen in our concert...im sooooooooooooooo psyched!

Last Friday I got a message from an old friend. She used to be my busmate when I was in high school and she found me on friendster. I couldn't believe it when she said that she now has a 5 year old daughter...she's younger than me! I saw her daughter and she's sooooo adorable...she looks exactly like her mom. Seeing her was really nice...made me look back and realize how blessed I am to have had such a fun childhood:) I thank God for Friendster...hehe!

Seeing her also made me feel a bit sad:( Seeing my old classmates and friends in Friendster always makes me look at myself...what have I accomplished? What have I got to show for the past five or ten years of my life? Some of my old classmates are now doctors, lawyers...holding other fancy sounding titles in big corporations...some flaunt their wedding pictures or the pictures of their cute kids...I see them...then I look at myself...am I proud of what I have accomplished? Should I be proud of what I have accomplished??? I know I sound really silly but sometimes I just wonder...I'm now more than a quarter of a century...am I a successful woman at 26 or do people see me as a failure at 26? I somehow have the feeling that I'm the latter...I'm that stupid 26 year old "husband-less" and "child-less" (perhaps hopeless...hehehe) woman who gave up a perfectly stable teaching job in perhaps the most...oh ok...one of the most prestigious high school in my country to do what?...Teach English to Koreans...haha...I don't mean to sound really bitter...I'm actually not bitter...I'm just anxious:( Sometimes I feel like one of those fruit flies that have been kept in a covered jar( I heard about this experiment somewhere...if you're interested in knowing about it just google it)...I probably know that the cover has been taken off...I guess I'm just too afraid too fly out of the jar.