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All these crazy things happening in our country should stop...nobody's doing anybody any good...no matter what y'all do we'll all end up in the dumpsters so quit babbling and whining...JUST START WORKING!!! Early this evening I promised myself I'd stop watching the news so I won't see all those bird brains still babbling on T.V...but I can't help it. I ended up watching DEBATE...NOT A GOOD IDEA!!! I won't be able to sleep unless I write this all down.

Four years ago...I was one of those who stood in EDSA for three days (well not three days straight...hehe...an average of 4 hours per day...I remember getting angry phone calls from my mom ordering us to go home...hehe!) to oust ERAP. At that time nobody told me to go there...when I woke up that morning I knew I just had to go there and let my voice be heard. I knew that my voice wouldn't matter much and that it'd be impossible for me to change the world all on my own...but I thought that if I join many others who were singing the same tune perhaps I can make a difference. So tonight I wanna start out a song...

I won't say that the 12 hours I spent in EDSA can compare with the suffering and injustices that many have experienced in the past for fighting for the country...I won't say that I understand what the poor and underpriviledged are going through...I won't say that I am well versed with our constitution and government policies...but what I want to say is that if Filipinos won't stop being selfish...fighting for power...thinking about only what's gonna feed our self interests we might as well put our country on a silver platter and feed it to the DOGS.

Right now I'm not very proud to be a Filipino. I teach Koreans everyday and often I find myself degrading my own country...I don't mean to do it but I can't help it. I have a student who commented on what is happening to our country...she had the chance to stay here for 8 months to study English in Cebu...when I told her about what's happening right now she simply explained that the reason why this is happening to our country is because generally Filipinos are ill-informed...well ill-informed is a euphemism...what she really meant was that Filipinos are poor and un-educated. It was very painful to hear that being a Filipino...but you know what I found myself agreeing with her. It is painful to know that the world sees us that way...we're a country of un-educated savages who take on the street each time we don't get what we want.

My students often tell me that we Filipinos are lucky. Whenever I would tell them about our history and how we have survived hundreds of revolutions they are amazed...they envy us because we speak English very well...they love our beaches and are impressed with how rich our country is with natural resources...everything we need to be a rich and progressive country is already in our hands...but sadly...I think our big problem is OURSELVES...

Our problem is not GMA...our problem is not the opposition...we are our own problem...we are all just too lazy...too stubborn...too selfish. We all dream big but we destroy each other's dreams even before they come true. We all want everyone else to dance to our own music...we talk a lot but we don't like to listen...we say we trust God to bring us through but we don't do anything to help ourselves...WE HATE OURSELVES.

I know many won't agree with what I said...some may even want to kill me for saying these things...or some just don't care about what I said...but I don't know...I guess what I want to accomplish in writing this is to let my voice be heard (selfish motive pa rin no??? hehe!...seriously...if I don't let this out I'll really go crazy...hehe!) I've listened enough...everyone else have been hogging the microphone claiming they're the voice of the majority...I think I'm part of the vast majority and I don't think I'm singing the same tune. Changing the government won't change our country...each and every Filipino need to start thinking about every other Filipino in this country...unless we start loving our country and everyone in it, regardless of difference in convictions and opinions, we won't be the great country that we can be.