love me, that's all I ask of you

I'm officially feeling the V-day Blues...hehe! Saw "A Very Long Engagement" last night and "The Phantom of the Opera" this evening and I would have to admit that once again I am reminded of the pathetic state of my "love life" or should I say..."love-less life." It's good we're having a concert on Sunday...at least I can vent out all my frustration and sentiments through the songs that i'll be singing...hehe:)

Well...I'm really not that hopeless and desperate...I'm just being sarcastic...hehe...I actually don't mind not having a boyfriend right now...just thinking about having one already makes me go crazy...how crazy could I get once I finally get one? I know God has a reason for not (YET) leading me to the "ONE." Last week during our Youth Night the speaker spoke about God being a jealous God and her message made me realize something...if I have a boyfriend now, I may not be able to do the things that I have been doing in church for God...I'd probably be giving more time to that other person and not find the need of being with God...scary thought huh? What if this is really the reason why God isn't giving me the "ONE"...could he be jealous...I sure hope his jealousy won't last forever...hehe! I know for a fact that I'm not yet ready for love and I know that God is preparing me for that time. For now I'm gonna have to be content with finding pleasure in the idea of falling in love...but I hope and pray that it won't take that long 'til I'm ready for it 'cause I sure don't wanna be and old, wrinkly bride...hehehe!