to audition or not to audition

Would you think I'm crazy if I tell you that I'm gonna audition for Philippine Idol??? Since I started watching American Idol (around three years ago) I promised myself that when I get the chance to audition for the show I'm gonna grab the opportunity to show the country or even the world what I can do...well the opportunity has come and I think I'm gonna take the risk of being laughed at and rejected.

Music has always been my first love and singing is one thing I would want to do for the rest of my life...since this is gonna be the last year that I'm gonna be eligible for the contest (their age limit is 28...I'm turning 28 this year) I know I have to take this opportunity...this may be my last shot for fulfilling my ambition of being a singer. Im sorry...I know it sounds like I've gone nuts...maybe I have...haha!

I am excited...but I'm more terrified than excited. I guess my biggest fear would be finding out that that what I have always considered as my greatest asset (which is my talent in singing) may not be great at all. I don't know...I grew up hearing other people say that I sing well...I'm worried they may be wrong...or perhaps they were just being nice.

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH part of me wants to fulfill my dream and audition...the other part is screaming out at me telling me not to make a big fool out of myself....WAHHHHHHH....
WHAT DO I DO????