Down

I feel weird:( Nothing bad has happened today but I just suddenly felt really down. Looks like it's time for me to get professional help...hehe!

Perhaps one reason why I suddenly felt depressed was because our secretary told me about one of her church mates who just lost her husband. Her husband was mercilessly murdered last Monday. Two motorcycles and a car cornered them somewhere in Marikina just shot several times at their van...her husband covered her and took all the bullets that might have hit her...he was only 33. Sheesh just thinking about it to write about it is making me really sad. I know God's way is perfect and His plans are for our good but there are times when you cannot understand why terrible things happen to perfectly nice people. The man who was murdered was the pastor of Victory's kid's church...his wife is in the worship ministry...they've only been married for 8 years and their daughter is only 4 years old...why do terrible things happen to people who are doing nothing but try and live lives according to God's will. I am not doubting God's grace and mercy...I guess I'm just having a hard time dealing with the reality of life.

Life is short...this may be good or bad news to some...hehe...but for me it's a challenge. This realization challenges me to live my life to the fullest. I gotta learn how to make the most out of what I have in my life...I need to laugh...cry...sing...dance...read...love...just grab any opportunity I can to try something that will enrich my life. There is no room for fear and paralysis in this life...I need to learn how to live...which means I should stop moping and start workin...hehe...I'm having a class in 5 minutes.