Nag da-drama

I'm in my senti mode once again...hehe! Nothing terrible happened...well except that I'm still stressed out with some stuff at work...but that's not it...I was just going through some of my files on my computer and I came across a file that contains my letters to my last moderating class(in a school that shall not be named)...hehe! I read the letters that I wrote for each and every person in my moderating class (all 42 of them) for their first recollection in the high school and I can't believe how caring I was at that time...lol! Well I'm not saying that I no longer care but I was just surprised that I actually knew each and every student I had in my moderating class...I didn't just know them as in I knew some stuff about them but I actually knew their background, personality and the things that they were going through at that time...I really cared for them. I know it may sound really ironic but I guess this is actually the main reason why I left classroom teaching...I cared too much...I cared too much that it started to hurt...especially at those times when I needed to finally let go of them.

I have to admit I miss my students...but I think it's better this way. With my kind of job right now...I don't get too attached since I never get to see my students...hehe...which means I won't get hurt too much...I think...hehe!

After reading those letters I went to check my friendster account...and guess what I did...I snooped around to check out how my former students are doing...and I'm happy to say that I think I did a good job being their first moderator in high school...most if not all of them are doing really well in high school. They'll be graduating from high school this school year....they'll be the last batch of students of mine who will be graduating*sighs* man I feel so old...hehe! This makes wonder...did I make much impact in my former students' lives??? Can I consider them as some of my accomplishments (hehe!)???