I'm back

(Sorry...i've been MIA...been spending most of my time in my other blog...*^^*)
Can't believe July is about to end...it'll be the start of the "ber" months in a month...wahhhhhhh I don't wanna grow another year older...hahaha!

I'll be 28 in December...that's toooooo OLD!!! I wonder where I'm gonna be celebrating my next birthday...hmmmm....would I still be here in the Philippines....or will I get to celebrate it in WINTER WONDERLAND....hmmmmm...I wonder . Things are all up in the air right now...the people in Illinois are clueless as to how they're gonna get me there *sighs* so I'm just gonna have to wait and see. It's getting a bit frustrating 'cause it seems like we're all in the dark not knowing what to do next...part of me is still somehow hopeful that things'll work out and I'm gonna get to leave and earn dollars and go on a trip to Europe when the school year ends...haha..but the other part of me is about to give up, worried that I may end up getting really depressed if things don't work out the way we're hoping it would. Well I guess it's all in God's hands right now...all I should do is wait patiently.

We're having a party this afternoon in celebration of my mom's kidney transplant's 10th anniversary. I'll be a thanksgiving party for God's faithfulness to my family. It's been 10 years would you believe that??? I've grown really old...haha!

Enlightened

I had the interview this morning...I'm quite overwhelmed about how excited they were about having me in their school...I don't understand why...but they do and it's really cool!
I'm more excited now than scared...it's not yet final though. Somebody will be calling me this Thursday or Friday to finalize things and if things go well I'll be leaving next month.

Last night I prayed for God to enlighten me and it's amazing that while I was talking with Pastor Lance this morning everything became clear...I know God has a reason why He's sending me there and I should say I'm excited to find out what it is ^^

Dooms day

Tomorrow's the day I'm gonna have to make a decision that may entirely change the course of my life. I have been praying for this for the past week...I was pretty sure I finally overcame the fear that has been keeping me paralyzed but tonight it's back...probably because tomorrow I'm gonna be waking up really early in the morning...go to our meeting place and make a decision. I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep tonight...but I know I have to or else I'm gonna feel even worse when I wake up tomorrow morning. I wish I can ask somebody to make this decision for me *sighs*

If I go through with it...I'm left with a month to prepare myself before I leave for the US...would that be enough??? I know I've got nothing to lose...and everything to gain...I guess I'm just a big wuss. What if I'm not good enough...I'm worried about being eaten alive by my students there T.T It has been a long time since I last taught in a classroom...I wonder if I can still do it.

It's just one year...I may like it...I may hate it...it's just one year so I might as well take the risk.