fine week

It's Friday!!! hehe! This week went by so fast...I love it! Had a great time splurging at "DIVI" on Monday (bought a gorgeous "Gucci" bag...hehe...super affordable but hip jeans and dvd set of "Lover in Paris" hehe!)...another close friend of mine left for the US last Tuesday...watched the finale of Rockstar: INXS last Wednesday (bummed because neither Marty nor Mig won...but kinda happy 'cause Marty would get to establish his solo career and write the kind of music that he likes)...Thursday was a lazy day and today (Friday)...I found out that one of my friends in the office is pregnant (YAY!!!). I LOVE THIS WEEK:)

Ribbons Undone

Ribbons Undone

She's a girl

Rising from a shell

Running to spring

It is her time

it is her time

Watch her run

with ribbons undone

She's a rose in a lily's cloak

She can hide her charms

It is her right

there will be time

To chase the sun

with ribbons undone

She runs like a fire does

Just picking up daises

Comes in for a landing

A pure flash of lightening

Past alice blue blossoms

You follow her laughter

And then she'll surprise you

Arms filled with lavender

Yes my little pony

is growing up fast

She corrects me and says

"You mean a thoroughbred"

A look in her eyes says the battle's beginning

From school she comes home and cries

I don't want to grow up Mom at least not tonight

You're a girl

Rising from a shell

Running through spring

With summer's hand in reach now

It is your timeIt is your time

So just run with ribbons undone

It is your time yes my angel

It is your time

So just run with ribbons undone

Run run darlin

'Ribbons undone

left behind

I just got home from one of my bestfriends' farewell party....well i actually didn't make it to the party proper because of work but I made them wait for me so that I'd get to see her for the last time before she leaves on Tuesday. Now I'm really sad:( What made it more sad is that I didn't even get to express to her how sad I am to see her go...I couldn't cry when I said goodbye to her so I ended up crying alone in my car on my way home. I know I shouldn't feel sad...I should actually be very happy for her 'cause I know how much she's wanted to leave the country and work abroad...but I just hate losing friends...I know "losing her" is not the correct phrase since she'll still be around...just that she won't be on my side of the world...but she'll be very far away and I know things will eventually change...she'll have her world and I'll have mine...and once again...like so many times before...I'm losing a bestfriend. (looks like I'm gonna have to look for another one:()

What is it with me??? I'm crazy to think that everything that's happening is about me but I'm starting to take this personally...hehe...why is it that everyone whom I considered as my bestfriend has left me??? Well of course they didn't do it intentionally...I just hate that I always get left behind. One of these days I'm gonna be the one doing the leaving.

Nag da-drama

I'm in my senti mode once again...hehe! Nothing terrible happened...well except that I'm still stressed out with some stuff at work...but that's not it...I was just going through some of my files on my computer and I came across a file that contains my letters to my last moderating class(in a school that shall not be named)...hehe! I read the letters that I wrote for each and every person in my moderating class (all 42 of them) for their first recollection in the high school and I can't believe how caring I was at that time...lol! Well I'm not saying that I no longer care but I was just surprised that I actually knew each and every student I had in my moderating class...I didn't just know them as in I knew some stuff about them but I actually knew their background, personality and the things that they were going through at that time...I really cared for them. I know it may sound really ironic but I guess this is actually the main reason why I left classroom teaching...I cared too much...I cared too much that it started to hurt...especially at those times when I needed to finally let go of them.

I have to admit I miss my students...but I think it's better this way. With my kind of job right now...I don't get too attached since I never get to see my students...hehe...which means I won't get hurt too much...I think...hehe!

After reading those letters I went to check my friendster account...and guess what I did...I snooped around to check out how my former students are doing...and I'm happy to say that I think I did a good job being their first moderator in high school...most if not all of them are doing really well in high school. They'll be graduating from high school this school year....they'll be the last batch of students of mine who will be graduating*sighs* man I feel so old...hehe! This makes wonder...did I make much impact in my former students' lives??? Can I consider them as some of my accomplishments (hehe!)???

Sunday Blues...the return

I'm in my senti mode right now...I've been playing "Alone Again, Naturally" for the nth time...I don't know what's causing this...it maybe the lemon chicken I had for dinner or seeing hotties KC and Cody Montero (they're both so dreamy...it's unreal!) most probably it's just because another week is about to begin and it's Monday tomorrow:( I was supposed to be talking with D but he's nowhere in sight...hope nothing bad happened to him:( It's been a long time since I last had my Sunday blues...guess it's back...hehe!

Seriously...I think I'm blue because another bestfriend of mine will be leaving me soon. P's leaving for the States on the 20th of this month. She's the 7th bestfriend of mine who migrated to another part of the world...I'm starting to think there's some kind of a conspiracy going on which aims to make me live in eternal solitude. *sighs* Well I know I sound really selfish to think that everything is all about me and besides I should actually be sublimely happy for her 'cause she definitely deserves all the best in life...but I can't help but be lonely...why are y'all leaving me???

This morning I went to the baptism of my former co-worker's daughter...I got to see some of my old colleagues from Ateneo...too bad we didn't get to stay long and hang out 'cause they all had their important appointments (except for me!) to go to. I felt really awkward telling them about my job...everytime I try to explain the nature of my work their mouths drop and they have this look on their face which screams "YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING!" Made me wonder again...am I a failure? In the past I would usually don't mind if people react that way about my job 'cause I myself thought that my work is a joke...but now...this reaction actually hurts my feelings...I guess I've grown to love what I'm doing...but I guess what makes it more difficult is that even though I know that I've finally found a job that pays well and that I actually love...I still feel like a failure because of what people think of my job:(