good good feeling

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!! HURRAY!!!! haha! I'm so happy it's already Friday(obviously...hehe) I so want to just loaf and not think of anything! My students went on strike today...lucky me...hehe. Five of my students were absent and the other students didn't want to study our lesson so we just ended up talking about other things.

This is definitely a good day for me. It started this afternoon when the parking attendant gave me a very good spot in the parking lot...followed by my colleague who stared at my face and said that I'm beautiful...(whoppeee...hehe)...seeing my sis on line and being able to talk to her even for just a few seconds...then I received a text message from one of Jill Jones Girls...hehe... then my 5 students who didn't answer my call...this has definitely been a good day for me:) I know it sounds strange 'cause these things seem trivial but sometimes it's these random trivial things that actually make days beautiful:) (how cheesssy!!!!)

I'm looking forward to another beautiful day tomorrow....I'm going swimming!!!!

Almost Here

saw/heard this song a while ago at MYX...all I can say is...ouch! hehe!
Almost Here
Delta Goodrem and Brian McFadden
Boy:Did I hear you right?
Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
Girl:
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'
cause your only almost here
Boy:
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Boy and Girl:
Bruise and battered by your words
Days are shattered, how it hurts
Boy:
Oh, haven't I always loved you?
Girl:
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with youI'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Boy & Girl:
Bruise and battered by your words
Days are shattered,
now it hurts
Boy:
Haven't I always loved you?
Girl:
But when I need you
You're almost here
Boy:
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
Girl:
And when I hold youYou're almost here
Boy:
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
Boy and Girl:
And now I'm with youI'm close to tears
Boy:
Cause I know I'm almost here
Boy and Girl:
Only almost here

I went to a job interview today. It was ok…well I’m not sure what’ll happen with it…hehe…I have this funny feeling that I wouldn’t get it. I totally sucked in the typing interview…haha! I’m really interested in this job because it’s a easy job and it’ll give me the chance to work from home…but too bad…I don’t think I’ll get it. I know shouldn’t be pessimistic about it…I’m know I’m good enough for it but I just don’ wanna get my hopes…wouldn’t wanna feel too bad in case I fail.

Today is one of my colleagues last day here at workL I’m feeling really sad…she’s the closest friend I have here in the office and just like all my friends in the past with whom I became close with she’s leaving*sighs* haha I know I sound really selfish thinking that it’s all about me…haha…but seriously I’m happy for her…she’s planning on working in a hotel in Dubai…and I’m really excited for her ‘cause it has been her dream to work abroad…but it’ll surely be different without herL

I’m sorry for sounding so cheesy…haha…I just don’t have anything profound to write about right now. Better stop writing now…should work…should work…should work…NAH!!! hahaha

valentines, old friends and fruit flies

Can somebody please stop the world from turning...I HAVE TO STOP TIME...MONDAY IS COMING!!! hehe! I was planning on relaxing ang watching a movie this weekend but I didn't get to accomplish it...I ended up stressing out for the Valentine's concert that we're organizing. I'm not complaining...I'm actually excited about it...well excited and REALLY NERVOUS about it..hehe! I single handedly made the patron tickets...I'm quite proud of my job 'cause they looked really classy...I only spent 63 bucks to make them. All the participants are so excited about singing in the concert...as of this afternoon we had 22 songs lined up which is crazy 'cause we can't figure out how we can fit them all in an hour and a half program...hehe. I can't wait to see what'll happen in our concert...im sooooooooooooooo psyched!

Last Friday I got a message from an old friend. She used to be my busmate when I was in high school and she found me on friendster. I couldn't believe it when she said that she now has a 5 year old daughter...she's younger than me! I saw her daughter and she's sooooo adorable...she looks exactly like her mom. Seeing her was really nice...made me look back and realize how blessed I am to have had such a fun childhood:) I thank God for Friendster...hehe!

Seeing her also made me feel a bit sad:( Seeing my old classmates and friends in Friendster always makes me look at myself...what have I accomplished? What have I got to show for the past five or ten years of my life? Some of my old classmates are now doctors, lawyers...holding other fancy sounding titles in big corporations...some flaunt their wedding pictures or the pictures of their cute kids...I see them...then I look at myself...am I proud of what I have accomplished? Should I be proud of what I have accomplished??? I know I sound really silly but sometimes I just wonder...I'm now more than a quarter of a century...am I a successful woman at 26 or do people see me as a failure at 26? I somehow have the feeling that I'm the latter...I'm that stupid 26 year old "husband-less" and "child-less" (perhaps hopeless...hehehe) woman who gave up a perfectly stable teaching job in perhaps the most...oh ok...one of the most prestigious high school in my country to do what?...Teach English to Koreans...haha...I don't mean to sound really bitter...I'm actually not bitter...I'm just anxious:( Sometimes I feel like one of those fruit flies that have been kept in a covered jar( I heard about this experiment somewhere...if you're interested in knowing about it just google it)...I probably know that the cover has been taken off...I guess I'm just too afraid too fly out of the jar.

seeing red

I should be sleeping now 'cause I have to wake up early tomorrow for church...but I need to write this now otherwise I'd end up being too lazy again to write something.

It's been a hectic day. Woke up early this morning 'cause mama, papa and I had to go shopping 'cause we'll be opening our hotdog stand on Monday so we bought some stuff that we'd need for the shop. After that I went straight to our youth meeting. We planned for our up coming Valentine's concert. It was fun...I'm so excited about the concert 'cause it's been a long time since we had something like this. This concert would actually do me good this valentine's day....instead of whining and feeling sorry for myself for not having a VALENTINE...hehe...at least now I've got something to be busy with I wouldn't even notice that I still don't have a valentine...hehe! After our meeting we had our praise and worship practice. It's always fun jamming with my kids. After that I went straight to Mcdonalds Katips to pick up my friend Dia 'cause we were supposed to go to one of our friends house at Makati. I was supposed to pick her up at six but as usual I was late...hehe!

It was fun seeing my old friends from Ateneo. It was a very wonderful party 'cause two couples from our batch announced that they're already engaged...one would be getting married by the end of the year and the other will marry next year*sighs*...and then one brought along his two adorable kids*sighs*...made me feel kinda sad 'cause I had no wonderful announcement to make...it was good though that I was with 4 other people who are as single and clueless as I am...hehe...at least I know I'm not alone...hehe!

We'll be celebrating valentine's day in less than a month...all I can say is....*sighs* hehe!

BLANK

My mind is blank…it’s EMPTY. Been wracking my brain, trying to come up with a decent entry…but can’t get anything out…I’m hopeless!

This is a bad way to start the year…my creative juices are not flowing…I think my head has a leak…I’m afraid I’ve ran out of it.

This sucks!!! I really feel like saying something thought provoking and earth shattering but I’m just babbling right now…should stop…better stop before this gets old.

back from paradise

Just got back from our 3 day vacation to Bataan...I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO WORK...I wanted to stay in Bataan so badly...I wanna wake up to morning swims on the beach, boat rides to deserted islands and just doing nothing *sighs* but I I guess I have to go back to the real world:( (why do I have to??? my dream world was just perfect for me...hehe!)

Man I'm sooooooooooo dark...haha! This is one thing I always regret about staying too long under the sun...haha...I love getting tan lines but getting a shiny, dark face is an entirely different story..haha...when beautiful people get a tan it looks good on them...for me...well let's just say it doesn't look good on me:(

Somebody asked me as to why I haven't been writing anything about D...well there's nothing to write about him...he's dead...hehe...kidding! Well it seems like he is...I know he's not dead but he sure is acting like he is...whatever! Guess I'm starting to get really tired of hoping and waiting...*sighs*

This really isn't a good sign...it's been a long time since I last had a crush...I don't easily get crushes...I guess I find getting crushes pointless right now...with me nothing ever comes out of getting crushes...I just end up outgrowing them or getting hurt (naks...ang drama!)...well like I said this really isn't a good sign...I'm a potential OS (Old Spice : a term my friends and I coined to refer to a spinster)...haha!

NEW YEAR

I should be in bed now...we're leaving early for Bataan tomorrow morning. I'm sooooooooo excited we'll be going to the beach and I'd get to wear the two piece swimsuit my sis bought for me...hahaha...well of course i'll be wearing it under a shirt and surf shorts...hehe! I'm so happy I won't have to go to work for three days....wohooooooooo!!!

I've been trying to write an entry here for the past few days but I couldn't think of anything interesting to write about. It's not like my life has been uneventful...I guess I'm simply lazy...haha!

Christmas was fun...man I pigged out!!! Wasn't expecting any presents but I got some:) which was really nice.

Last Dec 29, we had our company post Christmas Party. It should have been a fun night for me but I was to stressed out 'cause I had to run the show...our secretary couldn't make it to the party so she passed her responsibilities on to me...didn't get to enjoy the buffet:( Enjoyed our night out after the party though. We went to Eastwood and went dancing...it was really cool...haven't done that for a long time. Went home at around 3 AM (I'm so proud of myself...haha...I'm starting to act like a grown up...hehe!)

New Year's Eve was also nice...like Christmas we had an awesome feast:) On New Years Day we celebrated one my cousin's birthday...after the party we had our annual family pictorials...hehe! We played dress up again and posed for photos like there was no tomorrow...hehe! After our pictorials we exchanged presents...I got some really cool stuff: Regine V's latest album, pink knit shirt, bag from my ate and make up from my li'l sis...also got some cash from my 2 grams:)

Been going through other people's blogs and I noticed that everyone's writing about their new year's resolution...as for myself...I opt not to make any for failure to fulfill them would only frustrate me...hehe...so I guess I'll just say that this year, 2005, I'll try to be the best person I can be:) I know that by God's grace I'll be able to make a difference in the world this brand new year:) HAPPY NEW YEAR to y'all!!!