finally...

The week is finally over…wohoooooo! This Friday would’ve been better if it were a payday Friday but it’s ok…this’ll stop me from using up all my money over the weekend.

My weekend will be a bit hectic. I’ll have a cell meeting early tomorrow and then my family and will be going out in the afternoon. At night I’ll be partying with my colleagues…we’ll be going to our friend’s gig at Greenbelt. I’m so psyched…I already have my wardrobe and dancing shoes readied to parteeeeeeey!!!

Sunday will also be hectic…got church in the morning and church in the afternoon…hehe…love it love it love it!!!

Wish this weekend won’t fly by so fast…oh wait…wouldn’t mind if it would…TUESDAY IS PAYDAY!!!!

american idol

It's Thursday...tomorrow is Friday....hurrrrah!!!!

Saw American Idol finale this morning...I was quite disappointed 'cause I was cheering forBo...but it's ok 'cause Carrie is also a really great singer. I love her for singing my favorite song "Broken Road" although....everyone who saw our concert last Feb. (all 200 of em) should always remember that I sang it first...haha...well it's not like I wrote the song but I sang it first...haha...I remember everyone asking me where the heck I got that song 'cause of all the songs performed during the concert that song was unknown to all...hehe...well now you have to thank me for singing it to you first...haha! One of my kids from church told me that my version was better than Carrie's...haha...no...I didn't bribe him to say that...he really thought my version was better(believe me...kapal...haha!). Bo was soooooooooooooo cool! I can't wait to hear him come up with his own songs...I know even if he didn't get the title of American Idol, I have a good feeling that he'll make it big 'cause his voice is awesome and he's really HOT.

Once again I am tortured by this feeling of wanting to be a singer...haha! I don't know...can I consider myself a singer if I lead the singing in church??? haha! It's not that I don't like singing in church...I actually LOVE IT...I feel so free whenever I'm singing in church it's like I lose all my cares and just drown myself in God's glory. I don't dream of becoming a big rock star...I know I always say that that's what I want to be...but what I really want to do is to make music for God. Been working on some songs but I'm still too embarassed to share them to other people (i'm not just a closet poet...im a closet songwriter...hehe!) I wish one of these days I'd gather enough courage to come out and just sing them...hehe...one day....someday (extro with nostalgic background music...hehe!)

blah day

I love writing entries 10 or 5 minutes a class...i usually end up with better entries...they tend to be more urgent...more dynamic...hehe!

Too much for my dynamic entry....lol...haha! Just finished my class marathon which began at 7:25 until a minute ago. I'm feeling sleepy right now. I still have 2 more students to go...it won't be long it'll be Wednesday again...my favorite day!!!

I'm feeling a bit BLAH...been happy and excited for these past few days but now im on a downhill tumble...I need rest...I wanna go to the beach. Tomorrow my female boss will be back and once again I'm gonna feel her eyes burning through the back of my head...lol...no more FRIENDSTER for me then:(

I hate myself...I never learn. I always find myself in this vicious cycle of making stupid decisions and ending up really hurt and heart broken...when will I ever learn???

Eureka!

Exactly last week (last Sunday) I wrote about this song that Regine sang in her concert...I searched everywhere but had no luck in finding it on the internet...this afternoon while watching myx I didn't just hear it...I saw its mtv...and what do you know...apparently it has been playing over and over on myx and the radio but I haven't been paying close attention 'cause it was done by Southborder (I'm really hating their new image...hehe) I'm gonna have to warn you though 'cause it's really sappy...haha...but it sounded really nice when Regine sang it so I liked it. Ok...I'm gonna have to admit it...the song speaks of one of the greatest desires of my heart...true love (yiheeeeee...haha...tinukso yung sarili...hehe!)

WHEREVER YOU ARE
Southborder
I love to see the ocean's beauty
And the moon that shines above
Alone in the sand lookin at the stars
Wishing someday I would find true love

Wouldn't be nice to see the morning
With the one you love the most
Wouldn't be nice to say goodnight
To the one you hold so close
To your heart, to your heart...

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are

I love to sit in fields of green
Looking deeply thru the sky
Watching birds as they flap by
Hoping someday faith will bring me true love

Wouldn't be nice to hold someone
So dear, n near your heart
Wouldn't be nice to hear those words
I love you, from the one
That you love, that you love

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are

I love to see myself one day
In the arms of someone
Who will share her life with me
Selflessly, someday you will find your way,To me ...

what happened to me???

I had a grand shopping day...haha! Spent six hours at Greenhills...bought a pair of purple shoes...lol...pants, cologne, 2 cd's (Sugarfree and Imago), 2 packs of dilis and a pack of garlic covered peanuts...hehe! Spent more than I what I was planning to spend but it's all good...I badly needed to do something good for myself.

Still feeling emotional...don't know why...lol. Last night I went through my college notebooks...read some of my reports and realized that I sounded really brilliant then...what happened to me???

love and traffic

I wanted to vent about my frustration but I realized that the person I'm gonna be venting about doesn't deserve a precious space on my brilliant blog...haha! (taray?)

I'm just gonna write about my day. I spent three hours on the road early this morning. Traffic was horrible. I needed to leave home early 'cause I had to deliver the goods to our hotdog stands. I woke up at 9:30 with a terrible headache ( i lack sleep thanks to my younger sis, cousins and this mysterious British guy who kept me awake chatting on YM last night...hehe!)...left home at 10...reached my first destination(hotdog stand #1) after an hour and a half of driving...and drove for another hour and a half to get to my second destination(hotdog stand #2). After I dropped off all the goods mom and dad picked me up for lunch. I had a really good lunch (sirloin swirloin and creme brulee...yummy!) then dad drove me to the office. When I got to the office I found my helpless boss clueless about what to do 'cause one of the teachers would be absent...I sorted things out...distributed the students to other teachers and ordered him to call those students will not be able to get a class...haha... I feel so fulfilled...I've accomplished so much in half a day...hurray to me...haha!

Traffic was hell this morning. I was cursing all the drivers on the street...haha! Some drivers can really be rude and mean. I dream of having my own personal driver so I won't have to deal with the hellish traffic condition in this country...I need a boyfriend with wheels...hehe!

Spoke with younger sis last night...we talked about the latest development in her love life. She sounded really happy which is good but it felt kinda weird for me...haha...I really don't know what but I always feel weird whenever somebody close to me gets a boyfriend or a girlfriend and they tell me about how they feel and how wonderful it is...I don't know...I may be sour graping but I really don't think so. Something changes...it's like I've always had this way of seeing them but things change when they get into a romantic relationship...it's like they grow up...haha...that sounds stupid...hehe! They stop being selfish and start caring about another person's welfare...they start having all these future plans of settling down...having kids...retirement(hehe)...it's like all of a sudden they know exactly where they want/have to go...while loveless and clueless beings like me continue feeling their way in the dark...hehe! I don't mean to sound like I'm sour graping...it's just that at this moment I can't see myself in that kind of situation...I'm way too selfish...I like taking life as it comes and I find thrill in not knowing where to go...haha...is there something wrong with me???

I met an interesting british guy on the internet...haha...nothing serious...just having fun (good fun...don't worry)

SUPER HOT SUNDAY

Would you consider me bad if I say that I don't wanna go to work today??? hehe! The days I spent at home while I was sick made me want to go back to my good ol' bummin' days...hehe!

I had a SUPER HOT day yesterday...well it was hot not in the way that most people nowadays would probably think it would be (you know HOT as in EXCITING)...it was literally a SUPER HOT day.

Church was really inspiring. These past few weeks I get really emotional every time I see my kids (kids in our youth group). They're growing into responsible youth leaders. Well they're still kids...they still like goofing around but I don't know...I just noticed something about them...it's like they've changed...they're now more enthusiastic about playing in the band...some of them volunteered to teach in our Daily Vacation Bible School...some of them volunteered to be camp counselors in this one youth camp which they attended two weeks ago and now a number of them took on the challenge of guiding some of the new kids coming to our church...I'm so happy seeing them finding their passion in serving God. Gosh...I sound like a proud parent...haha...a proud single parent to be more exact...haha! Seriously...I really praise God for what's happening in their lives and I pray that God will continue to preserve them and mold them into the men and women He willed them to be.

I'm going crazy looking for the lyrics of a song which I heard early this evening...I don't know the title...but I really liked it...it's really driving me crazy...SO CALLING OUT TO ALL REGINE FANS WHO SAW REGINE VELASQUEZ AND POPS FERNANDEZ'S CONCERT WHICH WAS SHOWN ON CHANNEL 7...PLEASE TELL ME THE TITLE OF THE SONG WHICH REGINE SANG BEFORE SHE SANG "SHINE" ...SHE WAS WEARING THIS WHITE BALL GOWN IN THIS SEGMENT OF THE CONCERT....PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...SOMEBODY GIVE ME THE TITLE OF THE SONG!!!

Since I can't find the song that I've been looking for I thought I'd post this one...me likes this so much

Akap (Imago)
Nagtatanong
Bakit mahirap
sumabay sa agos
Ng iyong mundo
Nagtataka
Simple lang naman
sana ang buhay
Kung ika'y matino
[chorus]
Sabihin sakin
lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko
Ibaling sakin
ang problema mo
Kakayanin ko
Pikit mata
Kong iaalay
ang buwan at araw
Pati pa sapatos kong suot
Nagtataka
Simple lang naman sana
ang buhay
Kung ika'y matino
[chorus]
Sabihin sakin
lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko
Ibaling sakin
ang problema mo
Kakayanin ko
[bridge]
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa pait
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa pait
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit
[chorus]
Sabihin sakin
lahat ng lihim mo
Iingatan ko
Ibaling sakin
ang problema mo
Kakayanin ko

under the influence (of paracetamol and antibiotics)

Should be sleeping now. been sick for three days now. ditched work for the past two days which means i've lost 2 days pay:( i have terrible colds...i wanna chop my head off...feeling all melodramatic...it's probably the meds kicking in.

I know Him by Heart

There's a secret path I follow

to a place no one can find

where I meet my perfect someone

I've kept hidden in my mind

where my heart makes my decisions

'til my dream becomes a vision

where the love I feel

makes him real someday

Cause I know he's out there somewhere

just beyond my reach

though I've never really touch him

or ever heard him speak

though we've never been together

we've never been been apart

no we've never met

haven't found him yet

but I know him by heart

Am I living an illusion

wanting something I can't see

if I compromise I'd be living lies

pretending love's not meant to be

'cause i know my heart's worth saving

and i know that he'll be waiting

so i'll hold on and i'll stay strong 'til then

'cause I know he's out there somewhere

just beyond my reach

though i've never really touched him

or ever heard him speak

though we've never been together

we've never been apart

no we've never met

haven't found him yet

but i know him by heart.

snooze

I am so freakin sleepy!!! I took some meds 'cause I think I'm going down with the colds. I so wanna go home right now and just go to bed:(

waiting for tomorrow

I’m so restless…I’m dying to go on our trip tomorrow!!! My head is already in the beach mode (not bitch mode…hehe) I wanna go swimming!!!

I still sound like Inday Garutay. My dad’s asking me not to go on the company trip…he’s worried that it may worsen my condition…oh no no no way!!! Last week my parents were trying to convince me to buy a life jacket…haha...sweet huh…makes me feel like a baby…hehe! I think my parents are looking for a way to make me not join the outing…they never liked Puerto Galera…well I guess what they really don’t like is the idea of us going on a boat ride over the wild Mindoro seas...so they don’t want me to go. I must admit I’m also a bit anxious about the boat ride ‘cause my boss said it may take around 2 hours depending on the waves (you think I should’ve bought my own life vest? hehe)…but I guess my excitement overpowers my anxiety…so PUERTO GALERA HERE I COME!!!

inday garutay

I've never been this excited to start up a week. I usually whine about how the weekends fly by but this time I'm soooooooooooooooooo pumped up to start the week 'cause this week i'll be going to PUERTO GALERA!!!! (wohoooooo!!!) We'll be having our company outing. Two more nights....I'm so ready to bask under the scorching sun...hehe!

I sound like Inday Garutay. I felt so sorry for my students who had to listen to my horrendous voice...haha!

I had an eventful weekend (this explains my not so lady like voice). Saturday was SUPER!!! Our church participated in ABCCOP (Alliance of Bible Community Churches of the Philippines) Annual Sportsfest. Well I didn't play any sports I just helped my bro-in-law and my 2 kids from our church's youth group who organized the event get things done (in other words I was the errand girl) I spent all day running around Marikina Sports Center which was fun and good for my body...haha! I'm so proud of 2 of my kids from our youth group (well I'm proud of all of you sweeties...hehe!). They took on the challenge of organizing the event and they succeeded. I wouldn't have dared take on this responsibility but they did well. Seeing them turn into leaders somehow makes me realize that I'm doing the right thing and that I should go on supporting them.

Got to see old friends and old enemies (hehe...kidding!). .. it was so amazing how much things have changed...some of the old hearthrobs of some churches now look like daddies...haha...makes you wonder what you were thinking when you were swooning over them...haha...some people may have not changed in appearance but when you talk with them you'd know that something or a lot of things have changed and they've gone through a lot over the years *sighs* (All my life by the Beatles playing in my head for background music...haha!) I'm getting all nostalgic...it was a really nice experience...being around these people made me look back and see how far I've gone (naks!) and feel the joy that I have in my heart for having God in my life.