Sex and the City

I watched the final episode of Sex and the City…I was thinking about not watching it ‘cause I was planning on watching it when they show it on HBO but I figured that I would have to wait a long time before they show it so I watched it…hehe! The ending was really nice…surprisingly sweet and heart warming….kinda predictable though…you really don’t have to wonder as to who Carrie would end up with…I was hoping it would somehow end the way Ally McBeal did…very feminist…very empowering…but it didn’t…but it’s ok…it made me cry…that’s enough*smiles*

I wanna go to Paris! I wish I meet a Russian Sculptor who would fly me to Paris…oh…I think I should specify…a 25-30ish Russian Sculptor please not some gramps (pardon moi Baryshnikov…I think you’re totally cool with the dancing and the accent and all but you’re just TOO OLD…hehe!) Seeing Carrie and Alexander Petrovsky all lovey dovey gives me the shivers…he’s toooooo old…he kinda reminds me of this elderly co-teacher I had in Ateneo…when I say ELDERLY I meant ELDERLY as in, in his 70’s…hehe!

Watching the final episode of Sex and the City frightened me…it made me wonder…Do I have friends? Do I have friends who will be happy when I’m happy? Do I have friends who worry when I’m in trouble? Do I have friends who still worry even when there really is nothing to worry about? Do I have friends who would always be ready to throw a line when I’m in deep s**t? Do I have friends who will shake me off my delusional state? Do I have friends with whom I can have regular girls’ night-outs despite being busy juggling family and work (RED ALERT: I’m not busy juggling family and work yet I don’t have this item!!!)? I don’t mean to sound melodramatic but this really worries me. I’m the type of person who fears attachment because of my fears of being abandoned ( I’m a very scared person…hehe!) so I have this tendency of letting go of friendships. I’ve been trying to convince myself that I have a totally valid reason for being this way…I figured that people will always be moving on so what’s the use of holding on to friendships? Most of the closest friends I ever had have left me; my first close friend who was my cousin left for Australia when we were 7, the second close friend I had stopped going to church, the third close friend I had went to another university, the fourth and fifth close friend I had went to the states, the sixth close friend I had resigned, the seventh close friend who also happens to be my sister left for the states…I’m so tired of being the one left behind! I know no matter how hard I try to convince myself that this logic is valid I know it’s stupid…I still have friends, don’t get me wrong, I’m just scared that if I give too much I might get left behind again so I turned into this cold hearted, un-involved, distant “friend” who says she wants to meet up for lunch and dinner then cancel at the last minute. Last Sunday, I chose the mall over my college friend’s daughter’s baptism…I’m a very BAAAAAD FRIEND…I shouldn’t be surprised if I die old, gray and alone.

Sour Graping (NOT!!!)

I smell like bagoong...hehe...I was craving for ice cream but since I've been working my b**t off to lose weight I opted to eat green mangoes and bagoong (I know...HOW PRETENTIOUS!!! hehe!! well I think bagoong contains lots of calories but it's not like I consumed a bottle of bagoong or something...hehe!). It just gets frustrating 'cause I have been working out at least four hours a week for the past two months but each time I weigh in it seems like I'm not losing any weight (I think fitness first is messing with the weighing scale so that all their clients would go on thinking they need to lose more weight so they end up spending more and more money enrolling every month...hehe...good strategy!) Guess I'm gonna have to work a little harder:( Now I feel sad...may have to give in to my craving for ice cream...hehe!(nah!)

Last night I swore I'd write about this but I totally forgot. Last night after work I went to the car wash. I left my car in the car wash place and walked to the convenience store near the place to eat something 'cause I haven't had lunch (that was around 6:30 PM) I bought myself a slice of mango cake and diet coke. While I was eating my cake a couple entered the store to buy coffee...I almost threw up when they started being really affectionate with one another...it was horrible...there I was eating my cake while they were kissing and snuggling as they waied for their coffee...the girl was even making some kind of a sexy dance for his boyfriend...I couldn't take it...they were DISGUSTING!!! The girl was I think younger than me and they were even talking about how her mom would freak out once she sees them "PDAing" I wanted to pull her by her long silky faux light brown hair and drag her out of the shop and bring some sense into her puny brain...man have some self respect! What made it worse is that the girl was the one initiating the PDA...she was all over her not so good looking boyfriend (i'd only do that if I have Brad Pitt for a boyfriend!) I know I sound like a sour graping boyfriend-less girl...but I'M NOT...I swear I'M NOT and IF...that is IF I start acting like that WHEN I finally get a boyfriend will somebody please pull me by my long silk faux light brown hair, drag me out of the room and bring some sense into my puny brain!!!

I LOVE YOU PIOLO!!!

Just got home. I feel so wretched...hehe...I was supposed to go to my friend's daughter's baptism but Piolo Pascual and Jay-R forced made me not to go...hehe!

I went to this newly opened mall along C-5 road with my family...well we were supposed to stay there only for a short while...you know just check out the place then I'd go straight to my friend's party... until I saw the sign that says : Performing today at 5:00 PM, Piolo Pascual and Jay-R....HAHAHAHA!!! (yikes I know this'll make Jona cry again...hehehe!)

Well we only got to see glimpses of Jay-R and Piolo cause there were heaps of screaming and swooning fans...hahaha...but we got to hear them sing. Jay-R was soooooooo cool...his voice is really great...he's the real thing you know...Piolo on the other hand...hmmmm....well let's just say I felt really sorry for him...hehe...but in fairness...he looked really nice (was gonna say yummy but thought it would be too vulgar...haha...well I said it anyway...hehe!)

Got another invitation for a job interview but I don't think I'll be going to this one...it's gonna be somewhere in Manila which is just waaaaaayyyyy too far for me. Sent in several job applications today...hehe...I really want to find something new...something interesting...something that'll pay me mucho dinero...hahaha!

FULL

I'm soooooooo full...just got home from a night of pigging out...hehe! It was my uncle's birthday yesterday so we went out for dinner...as always we ate like there was no tomorrow...hehe...well there goes my 4 hours of workout:(

This morning I went to the dentist with my sis, her husband and their two kids. We haven't had our teeth cleaned for more than five years...haha...luckily they're still in condition...except maybe for my tooth floating somewhere in my sinus cavity. I had it x-rayed hoping to see that it's finally finding it's way to my gums...hehe...but it still hasn't moved down...it's lying all comfy around my sinus which isn't a good thing 'cause the dentist said it may start developing cysts which will be an entirely different and BIGGER PROBLEM! Leeron had his first trip to the dentist...at first we were kinda worried 'cause he might get scared of the dentist and not let the dentist check his teeth but he was really brave. When the dentist asked who'd go first...he volunteered to go first. It was kinda strange 'cause he actually enjoyed having his teeth cleaned...unlike other kids who get scared of the machines and the lights...he was very brave, in fact when the dentist was already done he kept on pulling the dentist's hand and insisted that he'd continue cleaning his teeth:)

I should go to bed now...I have to wake up early for church tomorrow. I'll be having a hectic day tomorrow...after church I'll be having a meeting with the youth officers of our church then in the afternoon I'll be going to the baptism of one of my college pals' baby daughter...it's gonna be fun!!!

Cleaning out my closet

It's almost two in the morning and I'm still up...got all pumped up after cleaning my closet...hehe! I wonder how long I'll be able to keep my closet organized...hehe!

I watched "Dogma" while cleaning my closet. It was one strange movie...but what's even more strange about it is that there are things in the movie that really make you think about your own faith...there were even parts where I caught myself nodding my head...yikes! hehe! Seriously...it is a good film, it makes you examine your faith and beliefs. I think everybody should watch that film...Christians and non Christians alike...it's one of those films that can make this world a better place to live in (other examples of this kind of movies: Love Actually, Arthur, About a Boy, Empire of the Sun, and Little Women)

Gotta get to bed now...have to wake up early tomorrow...I'm going to the dentist tomorrow morning:) Au revoir!

baby sis

Just spoke with my baby sis...feel kinda sad 'cause she started crying while we were talking on the phone. I can't imagine how she must be feeling right now...being in a strange land without her beautiful sister Sasa...hehe...but I'm confident she'll be ok...she's a strong and intelligent girl...she has what it takes to SHINE(ang bading! hehe!) in the real world...GO GO GO SIS...ITAAS MO ANG BANDILA NATIN DIYAN SA OHIO!!!

Things have changed a lot here at home since my sister left. Mom and Dad are sleeping in separate bedrooms. We seldom eat together as a family. Everyone seems to have their own thing to attend to:( I know my sis and I fight a lot when we're together but I really miss my sparring partner:(

bad day

Feeling crappy today. My day started just fine...I don't understand why it made this 180 degree turn...I guess there's really no such thing as a perfect day (for me at least). I just hate it 'cause when you're really sure that you're doing everything right and you're really cautious about hurting anybody that's when you'll stumble on a tower of wine glasses and just ruin everything...you even end up hurting yourself:(

decided to write the lyrics of this song...hope this makes me feel better (this is pathetic...I'm consoling myself!)

Angels
By Robbie Williams
I sit and wait

Does an angel contemplate my fate

And do they know

The places where we go

When we're grey and old

'Cause I've been told

That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed

Thoughts running through my head

And I feel that love is dead

I'm loving angels instead

Chorus
And through it all

she offers me protection

A lot of love and affection

Whether I'm right or wrong

And down the waterfall

Wherever it may take me

I know that life won't break me

When I come to call

she won't forsake me

I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak

And my pain walks

down a one way streetI look above

And I know I'll always be blessed with love

And as the feeling grows

She breathes flesh to my bones

And when love is dead

I'm loving angels instead

Chorus
And through it all she offers me protection

A lot of love and affection

Whether I'm right or wrong

And down the waterfall

Wherever it may take me

I know that life won't break me

When I come to call

she won't forsake me

I'm loving angels instead

shakin' my bootie

Writing an entry is kinda pointless since nobody seems to read my blog...hehe...but I'll write one anyway in case I become famous someday and die a tragic death...this weblog would be a perfect reference for the writer who decides to write my biography or a screenplay for a movie based on my life story...hehe! Pardon me...I know I sound really delusional but let me be...THIS IS MY SPACE:)

Last night I went to see a play with a friend of mine. We were supposed to watch this rock concert but she was asked by her boss to chaperone some of their students who were scheduled to watch "Midsummer Night's Dream" at Makati so when we saw a couple of our former students we just gave them our tickets and headed to Makati. I had a great time...got to see some of my former students...got to see a spectacular production...got to see Joel Trinidad who was smokin' hot (loved his topless scene...haha...grabe matzo!) and the best part is that I got to do these all for free...we were supposed to seat on the balcony area but the executive producer upgraded our seats to the 2500 peso seats...mwahahahaha!!!

I went to the gym this afternoon...it was crazy...haha...I joined this hiphop aerobics class. I've been wanting to join this class eversince I enrolled in Fitness First but I never find time...this afternoon I finally decided to make time for it. It was really cool...I'm sure I must've looked kinda silly doing all those hiphop routines but who cares...haha...I had a blast...felt like Beyonce shaking my bootie...hehe!

lovely day

Just got back from our day of pampering...my australian cousin and I went to the SPA to get some massage and facials...it was so relaxing I thought I heard myself snoring while I was getting the facial...hehe!

Sugar Free to Shakespeare...talk about getting the best of both worlds. I had planned a rocking evening for tonight...one of my best girlfriends and I was supposed to watch this acoustic rock concert but our plans have changed...we'd only get to stay for an hour in the concert 'cause she was asked to chaperone a number of her students to watch Midsummer Night's Dream at Makati...I now have to chaperone with her. What's really cool about it is that the tickets for the play costs around a thousand bucks but since we're chaperoning students we'd get to watch it for FREE!!!

patriotism

Just got back from Megamall...didn’t buy anything (which is very good…hehe) just helped my grams pick out some stuff for my cousins in Australia.

In my last entry I babbled about how cool it is to have a visitor from the land down under…well I would like to take it back after my cousin went all “drama queenesque” on us. She flipped when she realized that her hotel phone bills was almost 10k…which was not very surprising since she spoke to her parents and boyfriend for hours (they’re all in Australia). She made a scene in the hotel claiming that everyone in the hotel was out to take advantage of her…what made it worse was when she started calling Filipinos (in general!) mean and devious…me thinks she’s forgetting something…she’s also Filipino. It really pisses me off when Filipinos speak badly of Filipinos…I don’t know…I admit that there are some things in our country that are really hard to be proud of but I just think it’s really stupid to bad mouth your own people…when one speaks badly of his or her own roots he or she speaks badly of himself or herself. We should all be proud of our heritage…no matter how rotten the systems in our country are…no matter how shrewd our people may get…there are still a million of things that we can be proud of as Filipinos (I won’t attempt to enumerate them all…hehe!) HOY PINOY AKO…(PANGO AKING ILONG…HEHE) BUO AKING LOOB MAY AGIMAT ANG DUGO KO!!!

I did something really silly…I went to mcdonalds to get some drinks...I saw this poster of an acoustic rock concert which will be held at mcdonalds tomorrow night…several cool bands will be performing soooooo…I bought two tickets…haha! I still don’t know who I’ll be going with (if my sister were here then I won’t have this problem…hehe) but I’ll go anyway. I’m goin out on a Friday night!!! hahaha…my life is so pathetic…hehe!!!

I come from the land down under

Been trying to write an entry these past few days but each time I try to write one, someone would enter the room and ask me whether they could use the computer 'cause they have something important to work on...naturally, something "important" is usually more..." important" than blogging so all I can do is give in and blog some other time. Now...I finally have the computer all to myself...I think I'll finally be able to write an entry if I can stop myself from babbling on about this...hehe!

This week has been really hectic. Just got back from Tagaytay. One of my cousins from Australia is in the country so just like any kind-hearted and hospitable Filipinos, we're showing her around. Last Sunday we went to the mall with her...walked around for three hours in my favorite red high heels...went home with dead toes...hehe! On Thursday we may go shopping again with her then on Friday we'll spend some pampering time in a SPA...love it, love it, love it!!!

Having an australian visitor is quite cool...hehe...I just love hearing her speak with that cute accent...hehe...it's really funny 'cause sometimes I catch myself talking with her accent...I'm not sure whether she notices it...hehe...she probably thinks I'm mimicking her. She's been trying to convince me to find a teaching job in Australia...she said that their government has been giving incentives to people who would decide to teach in their country since their short of teachers....I'm carefully thinking about going for it but with the current relationship between the Philippines and Australia(regarding the travel advisory) I'm not sure whether they're open to accepting Filipino English teachers to teach their English speaking students English...hehe! If I can't find a job there she said she'll find me a man from down under so I can migrate to australia....aussie aussie aussie!!! I'd get to fulfill my dream of marrying someone with an accent... SWEET (suh-weet)!

Should get to bed now...have to wake up early for "Amazing Race" :) (I should get a life!!!)

My Second First Entry

Technically this is my second entry but I would like to consider this as my first entry since my first one was really lame. (crossing my fingers that this one won't be lame like the first...hehe) Just a brief introduction for those who don't know me...if you're reading my blog title right, you'd probably come to the conclusion that I'm another superstar wannabe who has decided to live out her "supastah" dream by creating her make believe "superstar world" in cyberspace (assuming that people will actually find time in their boring lives to read about me...hehe)...I would just like to tell you that if that is your assumption...YOU'RE DEAD WRONG...I'm not a superstar wannabe...I'm a SUPASTAH!!! Welcome to my "SUPASTAH WORLD!!!"(nyak here's another lame entry!!!...hehe!!!)

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I had an ok day...went to the gym in the morning...worked out for an hour...went straight to my korean kids...taught english for three hours...passed by the grocery to grab some stuff for dinner then finally headed home...uneventful, but that's ok:)

My lil sis left for the states last Thursday...things here at home are still a bit gloomy...we're all quite sad seeing my sister go which was kinda surprising because while she was preparing for her trip we were all very excited for her...making lists of the things we'd want her to buy for us...hehe...we didn't realize it would be hard to for us to deal with her absence...especially for my mom who now swears that she would discourage every parent she knows from allowing their kids to work or study away from home...she even warned me that since my baby sister is not home they'd consider me as the youngest...which means that they'd be overprotective of me...yikes...there goes my social life (or should I say non-social life???)