The Jill Jones Club

It has been a wonderful weekend...well it's not perfect but wonderful nonetheless.

This evening I had a date with D and P...two of my dearest friends. It was really nice seeing them again. We had dinner at this Pizza Hut fine dining thingie at The Gateway Mall. We had Shrimp salad, minestrone soup and three humungous plates of pasta. We had so much fun checking out this really cutesy waiter named Lawrence...haha...after dinner we all took turns going to the restroom 'cause we drank too much water after asking him to keep on bringing us water...oh the things you do in the name of LOVE...haha!!!

It was really good to finally see them again...meeting with them kinda reminds me of Sex and the City...hehe...minus the sexcapades of course...haha! We actually have a name for our group...we call ourselves the Jill Jones Club...in honor of our most loved teacher in our former school...haha! Well actually there are four members of the Jill Jones Club...but the fourth one has a boyfriend so she doesn't have much time to have ranting sessions with us...hehe! It's actually weird how the four of us found ourselves together considering that we all come from completely different backgrounds;

D is in her forties...she's a single mother who's prone to getting herself into sticky relationships...I mean really STICKY!

I is a year younger than me...she's a very unique girl..."conong jologs"...she's totally fun to be with 'cause she's really hilarious...we weren't really close when we were still teaching in the same school but she was close to P who is really close to me so I became close to her...does that make sense??? Of the four of us she's the only one who's in a "normal" romantic relationship which is totally unfair 'cause she's the youngest of the four of us!

P is the nicest of the four of us...the perfect woman...she's got the beauty, the brains and a really big heart...any guy (even her students) who get to spend time with her really fall head over heels in love with her...which makes it all the more difficult for me to understand how her bottom-dwelling, b*s**rd ex-bf had to guts to break her heart:( GRRRRRR!!!

The last member of the group would be me...the romantically challenged, neurotic, fatalistic and desperate virgin...haha!

When you put the four of us together it would definitely be a riot...hehe! I actually think our stories would make good movies or cheesy (un)romantic novels...Sex and the City would be forgotten once we tell the world of our (mis) adventures in LOVE....hehe!

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It's happening again. D(the male D) and I are talking...after months of silence he finally decided to make his presence felt again. I confronted him about how cruel it was for him to be silent after promising me that he would try and make things work but he claimed that aside from trying to stay alive there...he got scared when things started to progress really fast...he begged and told me that he was sorry for being such a jerk and that this time he will really make things happen. Should I subject myself to this all over again??? Should I risk the possiblity of getting hurt again??? I hate this vicious cycle...I gotta get off this!

Saturday

Ok...I wanna be all reflective and insightful but I think I'm too sleepy to be able to come up with an entry like that...lol!

This day has been hectic...wasn't really planning on going to the leaders' meeting in church on time 'cause I haven't had enough sleep but I had a nightmare about arriving too late in the meeting and having to put up with the not so brilliant plans that the people made while I was gone so I decided to wake up early and go to the meeting early. The meeting was sooooooooooo exhausting. We had to evaluate the first half of the year and plan for the rest of the year. Although listening to people speak and babbly was tiresome, I would have to say that this meeting has made me realize what God has been doing to my kids in our church's youth ministry. We've accomplished so much in the first of the year and I really praise God for moving in the lives of these young people...I know they still have a long way to go in terms of their maturity but I am certain that God will be with them:) I want nothing but the best for their lives....oh listen to what I'm saying....I sound like a doting mother...haha!

Mama and I had a Sweet 18 marathon from 3PM to 9PM...haha! Lee Dong Gun is sooooooooo dreamy!!! It's funny 'cause my mom and I are actually competing for him...haha! I remember I told my mom that he also sings and he actually sang "And I Love You So," my mom was quick into saying that he sang that song for her...haha! Oh he's just soooooo dreamy...I can go on and on swooning and sighing over him...haha! I'm hopeless *sighs*

testing 1..2...3....blog's messing up:(

the week's finally over

I am soooooooo sleepy!!! I so wanna go home now but unfortunately I still have to wake up early tomorrow because I'll be having a meeting in church:( Don't get me wrong...it's not that I don't like going to church...I just don't feel like waking up early considering that I get to sleep really late...guess I can come late to the meeting...hehe!

I'm so happy...it's finally pay day. I did a really great job this month....I'm sooooooooo rich...haha!

This week has been a really busy week. I had to interview a number of applicants...it's a good thing we finally hired one teacher for next week which means that next week would no longer be as hectic.

Two people have been pissing me off this past week...I know it isn't good to have these negative feelings but I can't help it. Two things I hate most in people would be arrogance and incompetence...the combination of this two would be the worst thing. I really get pissed off with cocky, incompetent people...be cocky if you can do everything excellently...if not just lay low and be nice.

It has been an eventful week...may seem like only bad things happened but something really good and exciting happened this week...don't think i'm ready to talk about it...I'll talk about it when everything becomes clear...hehe!

about love and free dinners

It's our second day in our new office and everything is going ok. I'm really enjoying my privacy...feeling more like boss now...haha! 'Won't be having a class in an hour so I decided to pass time by writing an entry.

Had a wonderful dinner with my colleagues...My parents were scheduled to drop by to drop off the keys to our food stall so I asked them to buy me rice but they came with 2 bags filled with goodies which we all enjoyed (sweet no?)...hehe!

Right before dinner I spoke with one of my students. We've developed a really good friendship because our ages weren't very far apart...she's really nice and she trusts me with her darkest and craziest secrets...this evening she was feeling really bad. Last weekend she found out that her boyfriend is dying...his doctor said that he has a rare sickness which can kill him anytime. She was really really down...she was crying while I was talking to her. I feel so awful 'cause I couldn't say anything that would help her feel better...I really felt sorry for her:( What do you say to somebody who may lose the love of her life???

Talking about love...(don't worry I won't be talking about my precious lee dong gun...haha!)...heard from D:( After more than a month of silence he finally wrote me again...I don't know what to do with it...I hate feeling this way...hearing from him gives me false hopes that things will work out for us...I just wish he'd shut me off forever so I won't have to hope and wait anymore:(

new office

It's a new week...in a new office...all's well...so far...hehe! I'm liking our new office...it looks more like a real office...hehe! I'm feeling more like manager here because I finally have privacy...I have my own little space which is not easily invaded by unwanted visitors...hehe! I can friendster freely without worrying about my bosses watching behind me...yipeeeeeee!!!

This Monday isn't so bad...6 of my students are absent...had a really relaxing Monday:)

this is what has been keeping me busy...hehe! (pathetic!) 

muy gwapo...hehe 

meet Lee Dong Gun 

freaky friday

This Friday is really crazy...the new teacher who was supposed to come today didn't come for the training...two applicants came for interview...good thing our back up hiree was free but unfortunately I had to train her while entertaining applicants and having class with my students...plus we're preparing for our move to our new office...I feel like a SUPERWOMAN...hehe! I so want to go home and just sleep:(

Right now I'm trying to relax and unwind by writing this entry with my sweet Lee Dong Gun singing "And I Love You So" to my ears...hehe...it's really too good to be true...this gorgeous guy also sings...GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! He actually sounds good...so manly...so sexy...haha! Pardon me for babbling about this silly crush again...I really need a REAL love life....is there anyone out there up for a normal romantic relationship with me (26/f/asia)??? HAHA!!!

I have to go to work tomorrow. We were supposed to move last Saturday but it didn't push through so now I have no excuse not to help...hehe...well I actually feel like helping. I'm so excited to move to our new office. Our new office looks more like an office...haha!

I'm really happy the week's over...I so wanna relax...maybe I'll watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory...or maybe I'll spend my time watching my DVD's from divisoria and swoon over my crushie...haha!

Korean love story...the continuation

I've officially gone nuts. I feel so silly...I'm like a giggly, pa"cute" high schooler who has a crush on one of those t.v hearthrobs from "That's Entertainment" hahaha!!! I'm so ashamed of myself!!! In my previous entry I mentioned that I have this huge crush on one of those Koreanovela actors and guess what...he's here...well not in the office...but here in the Philippines...hahaha! He arrived this morning and I've been swooning eversince I saw the video clip of his arrival at NAIA on www.inq7.net. My colleagues here at work think I'm acting really weird...haha...my boss even gave me the link to his official website (www.leedonggun.istar.co.kr) and told me that she thinks I will be going to Korea someday...haha!

I hate it when I get crushes like this. I'm 26 years old and I'm having this fantasies about a koreanovela actor...these acts are for teenagers....I'm sooooooooo pathetic...haha! I badly need to get a life. I was talking with our secretary a while ago and I was telling her about my fear of never finding love (drama no?)...I think I am not capable of having a normal kind of romantic relationship...haha...I easily get hooked on the "IMPOSSIBLES"...I usually end up wanting what I can't have...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! I want to have normal love story (well actually I just want a love story...any love story...hahah!)...I want to meet someone who likes me the way I like him...if possible I want him to like me more than I like him:( Is this too much to ask??? I'm sorry for sounding desperate...I know God has a plan for me but I'm having one of those days...pardon me for whining...'guess I just have to keep on waiting...

pasensya na sa litanya

All these crazy things happening in our country should stop...nobody's doing anybody any good...no matter what y'all do we'll all end up in the dumpsters so quit babbling and whining...JUST START WORKING!!! Early this evening I promised myself I'd stop watching the news so I won't see all those bird brains still babbling on T.V...but I can't help it. I ended up watching DEBATE...NOT A GOOD IDEA!!! I won't be able to sleep unless I write this all down.

Four years ago...I was one of those who stood in EDSA for three days (well not three days straight...hehe...an average of 4 hours per day...I remember getting angry phone calls from my mom ordering us to go home...hehe!) to oust ERAP. At that time nobody told me to go there...when I woke up that morning I knew I just had to go there and let my voice be heard. I knew that my voice wouldn't matter much and that it'd be impossible for me to change the world all on my own...but I thought that if I join many others who were singing the same tune perhaps I can make a difference. So tonight I wanna start out a song...

I won't say that the 12 hours I spent in EDSA can compare with the suffering and injustices that many have experienced in the past for fighting for the country...I won't say that I understand what the poor and underpriviledged are going through...I won't say that I am well versed with our constitution and government policies...but what I want to say is that if Filipinos won't stop being selfish...fighting for power...thinking about only what's gonna feed our self interests we might as well put our country on a silver platter and feed it to the DOGS.

Right now I'm not very proud to be a Filipino. I teach Koreans everyday and often I find myself degrading my own country...I don't mean to do it but I can't help it. I have a student who commented on what is happening to our country...she had the chance to stay here for 8 months to study English in Cebu...when I told her about what's happening right now she simply explained that the reason why this is happening to our country is because generally Filipinos are ill-informed...well ill-informed is a euphemism...what she really meant was that Filipinos are poor and un-educated. It was very painful to hear that being a Filipino...but you know what I found myself agreeing with her. It is painful to know that the world sees us that way...we're a country of un-educated savages who take on the street each time we don't get what we want.

My students often tell me that we Filipinos are lucky. Whenever I would tell them about our history and how we have survived hundreds of revolutions they are amazed...they envy us because we speak English very well...they love our beaches and are impressed with how rich our country is with natural resources...everything we need to be a rich and progressive country is already in our hands...but sadly...I think our big problem is OURSELVES...

Our problem is not GMA...our problem is not the opposition...we are our own problem...we are all just too lazy...too stubborn...too selfish. We all dream big but we destroy each other's dreams even before they come true. We all want everyone else to dance to our own music...we talk a lot but we don't like to listen...we say we trust God to bring us through but we don't do anything to help ourselves...WE HATE OURSELVES.

I know many won't agree with what I said...some may even want to kill me for saying these things...or some just don't care about what I said...but I don't know...I guess what I want to accomplish in writing this is to let my voice be heard (selfish motive pa rin no??? hehe!...seriously...if I don't let this out I'll really go crazy...hehe!) I've listened enough...everyone else have been hogging the microphone claiming they're the voice of the majority...I think I'm part of the vast majority and I don't think I'm singing the same tune. Changing the government won't change our country...each and every Filipino need to start thinking about every other Filipino in this country...unless we start loving our country and everyone in it, regardless of difference in convictions and opinions, we won't be the great country that we can be.

FRIDAY!!!

Yipeeee...my student's absent finally got the chance to write a blog entry!

Can't wait 'til weekend finally comes. It's funny, most of my students actually think it's Friday today so they get surprised when I tell them I talked to them tomorrow...hehe! Could it be that they're correct...is it really Thursday today??? hehe! Oh I'm dying for PAYDAY FRIDAY!!!

Woke up really early this morning to watch ROCKSTAR:INXS. It's funny...my 3 yr old nephew, Zeth, totally enjoys watching this show. He watched the show with me yesterday...it was so cute 'cause it seemed like he was hypnotized by the performers who were rockin out in the show...it's funny...he wouldn't even let me change the channel 'cause he didn't want to miss a performance...he's only 3...it's amazing how he's acquired mine and my sister's taste in music...haha! The show is really cool...there are some really powerful singers in the show...I especially love the women rockers...too bad the cutest guy (Will) got booted out of the contest this morning.

What's the deal with Cory Aquino??? Has she gone mad? Why won't she stop calling on the people to pray that GMA would resign...she's not helping the country. It actually makes you wonder...what does she get out of this??? hmmmmmmm....hehe!!! Aren't the signals clear to her...people don't care about she thinks...she'll actually do us more good if she just keeps quiet.

Better stop talking politics...it just makes me really angry!!!

Should end this now...I'll have class in 2 mins...i'll write more tomorrow.

where are we going???

I started writing a really angry letter on what I think about everything that is happening in this country...but I figured it'll actually do me no good...heck II'll write it anyway...haha!

At present, I feel really helpless...it sucks to know that there is nothing I can do about this and all I can do is just accept the changes that are taking place. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I can't believe how selfish and greedy people can be...these people who are claiming to be looking after the good of the majority are either buying their seats of power or saving their own asses...they don't care about the Filipinos. I don't know what'll happen to us tomorrow.
I'm starting to think that we actually deserve this...for being stupid...for not learning from our past...for not having enough balls to stand for what we really believe in...for being apathetic...for thinking that whole world revolves around our individual lives...Why can't we all just get along??? I know this is a cliche but I don't care...Why can't we just all work together to make this country the great country that it can be??? Why can't we all see that as long as everyone's fighting for power we won't be able to get anything done...it'll just be a vicious cycle of seating and unseating Presidents and our country will continue to rot in dumpsters.

Let's just all listen to Chris Martin's and his gang's advice...we should all just talk and fix things:)

Talk
oh brother i can't,
i can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you
cos i don't know what to do
oh brother i can't believe its true

i'm so scared about the future
and i want to talk to you
oh i want to talk to you
you can take a picture
of something you see in the future

where will i be?
you could climb a ladder up to the sun
or write a song nobody had sung
or do something that's never been done

are you lost or incomplete
do you feel like a puzzle,
you can't find your missing piece
tell me how you feel

well i feel like they're talking in a language
i don't speak
and they're talking it to me
so you take a picture of
something you see in the future

where will i be?
you could climb a ladder up to the sun
or write a song nobody had sung
or do something that's never been done
do something that's never been done
so you dont know where you're going

but you wanna talk
but you feel like your going
where you've been before
you'll tell anyone who'll listen
that you've feel ignored

nothings really making any sense at all
lets talk lets talk lets talk lets talk

Another Weekend

It's Friday...I know this is getting old but I don't care...I'm just sooooooooo relieved the week is finally over. It hasn't been a very busy week but I'm so exhausted...I actually don't understand why...I've been feeling BLAH:(

Felt really uncomfortable at work 'cause our secretary won't stop teasing me...hooking me up with one of our officemates...I feel horrible 'cause I know it's mean to say I don't like him 'cause he's nice and all and heck...who am I to judge somebody considering that I'm not such a prized catch anyway...but it just ain't right for me. This guy that she's pairing me up with is not horrible looking...he's actually intelligent but he is a typical geek...he is a trekkie...he had a black cloak made for himself for the showing of Star Wars episode 3...he spends most of his time glued to his pc and he never eats with his officemates...he smells a bit and his waistline is way up his chest...I know I'm so mean writing all these things about the guy but I feel more horrible being teased by my so-called "friend" to this guy. As much as I hate to admit it I was getting really annoyed with our secretary 'cause she just won't stop...she even threatened to tell our boss about it...i know she was doing it for fun pero grabe sobra na akong napipikon talaga!!! (ANG MEAN KO...promise i'll be alone and miserable forever talaga...promise!!!)

I'm not very excited about the weekend...i had a blast last weekend which resulted to a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE Monday. I'll be leading the praise and worship on Sunday...I badly need a boost:(